Pondering My Journey

As I played at the Taverna earlier today and wrote about some of the books I have so loved, it brought me to thinking about what brought me to this point in time.

I’ve always been a writer, but never really claimed it. It was just something I did. I had a dream a long while back about writing the “great American Science Fiction novel” … but never quite did it. I’d start … then stop. It “wasn’t happening.”  I wasn’t creative enough, I thought … didn’t have what it took. Finally, after years of dreaming about it, I gave up the dream of writing novels, though I felt them very much present in me.  

I didn’t believe in myself at all … though the thing I continued to always do was write … in one form or another. 

I dutifully worked as an RN for years … having gone to school and trained right out of high school … applying myself to the very mainstream and scientific pathways and was great at it. At the same time though, I studied many many diverse and holistic things: spiritual paths, astrology, different healing modalities … all the things that could satisfy my immense and very mystical curiosity. And through it all I wrote … and wrote … and wrote.

But didn’t know that I was actually doing who I am!

Then a little over a year ago … the novel struck … magic happened. Long long story about how it all came to be … very synchronistic all of it … but now I and a friend together are writing this novel …. actually more like three … and the inspiration and fun just continues to pour through. It was not at all planned … we never talked about writing together … it just happened!

So now it has all but taken over my life … and it is a total labor of love! Characters wake me in the night and I must get up to write whatever plot line is coming forward or I don’t sleep! I go out to dinner with my husband, and inevitably … as he sees the faraway look in my eyes … I’ll hear, “You’re writing, aren’t you?” (bless him he’s a saint as I’ve been so totally encompassed in this.)

And all of this … while still working a “day job.”

So, as I’ve been here at Riversleigh this short while and starting to muse more widely, I know now this was all perfect … it all had to happen as it did … giving me the rich experience I can now bring to my writing. I would never have dreamed it would happen this way … but I have learned in my life that if you follow your nose and your resonance … somehow you find yourself where you are meant to be … even if you thought you’d find your way there.

The most beautiful things can evolve from the strangest pathways.

Donna